Mothers Day, 2015

It's our first without her. This is my Marilyn at her absolute best.....

I miss her.

Maybe it's time

It might be the right time to start "There You Have It...Again" again. It's been a couple of years. Much has changed. Life is very different. I am older, I have been recently widowed, I am just now ( after going through endless kinds of purges of fear,self pity and days of reliving the past) accepting that as a true fact, I have found some peace, I am looking for some contentment, and the list goes on. Politics which always has been a pleasure for me to follow and enjoy and eagerly participate in has changed even more than I have. Sure, I'll vote. But I have low expectations for the outcome with the entire country living in fear of everything and probably ready for letting the conservatives take over. We'll see and maybe before two plus years go by I will post here again.

...you never can tell

This is really for me, but on this day I always remember Bob D and Denis T. They could not have been more unalike. But they both did share this day and some of it's iconic images and themes. So, for them and me too.

Sorry about the ad , but capitalism still rules.

Waxing or is it Waning

Not to be outdone by my woods out back, here are my woods out front as they looked back in April of 2005, or was it '04. Doesn't matter really, but I just checked and it was 2005.

Waxing or waning...now that matters.

Still Looking for It

I did it again. Feeling a little more drifting than usual I sold my fairly new little Lumix DMC ZS7 and bought a brand new Lumix LX5. Both pretty nice point and shoot cameras. Then, and once again, the new camera while it has a sort of small cultish following of fanboys, didn't come with a manual that instructs inspiration, seeing, ambition, nor even techniques to substitute for same. Alas.

And worse yet, after I got the new machine and the accompanying remorse and second guessing I realized that I truly wished I still had my old early better than pretty good for it's time point and shooter the Panasonic Lumix DMC FZ30 for a whole bunch of "reasons" or rationalizations. So I threw out a bid on eBay and got one. Then spent the next day or so really in a state of self doubt and chastising myself for being an idiot. No, worse, a nut---a stupid nut at that.

So what's next. Maybe I will actually take a picture. Or not.

Feeling old.

It's Truck Day

Almost everyone knows what this means. Big league baseball is close to being back for another season. This winter will more than likely still be in evidence when an even bigger day, Opening Day 2011, rolls around but who cares. The games will begin and everything will be alright.

I am not too sure when these events started to be the big thing to me that they are now. I know they were not that big a deal back when I still played the game, nor later when I tried to play middle aged slow pitch softball, nor even later when I was all self absorbed in my old man worries as I turned into a pensioner. But after that time when I realized that it's all about expectations and they can be adjusted and refined that it happened. And it's been a pretty good ride ever since.

So, pitchers and catchers on the 13th I think. First spring training game on TV sometime in early March. What the heck else is there.

A Fake

I put up a fake Christmas Tree this year. Been threatening this for twenty five or thirty years and this was the year to actually do it. Mrs calls it our "holiday structure" after a cartoon in the Hartford Courant which referred to an artificial tree put up as Hartford's sort of official tree in Constitution Plaza this year.

Don't ask me why. I just wanted to. The rest of the season is about the same as it has been for the past fifty years. And the last two very faded links left from the paper ring garland that Mrs put on the tree in 1961 when I was sick are on it, as usual.

So, there you have it.